I cleared my Outlook calendar today. For a long time, I’ve simply left all my recurring clients and meetings on my calendar. At first, it was because I planned to return to business as usual once we had this Corona Virus thing all sorted out. Then, it served as a reminder of my work life that I nostalgically scrolled past on my way to other information in my email. Now, as I emerge from the haze of two whole months on unemployment, the appointments on my calendar seem like relics from the past. So, I have deleted them to make room for my schedule of webinars, online clients, and zoom play dates and parties for my son and his friends.
There is only one appointment that I was able to keep. Every two weeks on Monday morning, I complete payroll for my staff. I kept the appointment, but I changed the name to “Certify for Unemployment.” Oddly enough, the two things are on the same schedule. At work, I make sure others are paid the appropriate amount. Now, I make sure the State of Illinois is reminded that I’m still not working every other Monday morning at 9am.
It feels good to clear my schedule. I’m looking at this blank space with hope. As I fill it with sparsely spaced, intentional dates with self improvement and personal connection, I like seeing my daily, weekly, monthly itinerary with joy. I can stay calm when I look at it. I don’t hear the din of low grade stress in my heart that I normally have when looking at it. I can’t wait to get my haircut in June.
There are things to look forward to. Right now, I like what’s on my horizon.
Lisa Moves 